STORY OF A DEPRESSED STAY AT HOME 


I have been trying to find work for over four years now.

Attended a few interviews, yet nothing happens.

I have a loving Parent who care for me.

I feel miserable being a stay-at-home bachelor not because I want to but because I can’t find any work that suits me.

In fact, lately, I have been applying for any kind of jobs and still nothing happens.

I feel so ashamed that I feel like I want to die, so I do not talk about this to anyone.

I live in a country where I made few good friends, but they all have their own issues too.

I miss my family and I am avoiding to call lately because I don’t want them to know how sad I really feel.

I am in my early 30s and I have a great educational background. I have worked all my life to get what I have and be where I am…until this…

I always thought that people who fall into depression were weak and those who committed suicide were insanely selfish.

I never believed that an emotional pain could be strong enough to create the genuine need to kill oneself.

Lately, the only reason that prevented me  not to  go through with killing myself is the love I have for my friends, parents and  siblings.

How selfish would that be.

Right now I feel so worthless as a person in the society because I do nothing to contribute.

I live in a beautiful city with gorgeous beaches and landscapes but even that I can’t fully appreciate the beauty anymore.

I do exercise, read and I’m outside a lot (I do feel better when I am distracted doing those things) but the relief is only temporary.

I don’t know what else to do.

Written by:

Kogwuonye patrick onyeka

Writer/educator/enginneer

Uniben

Credited to:

All depressed fellows

All unemployed youths

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11 thoughts on “STORY OF A DEPRESSED STAY AT HOME 

  1. thepsychogrok

    Good one. I am a budding therapist and I will second your thoughts when you say people who commit suicide are weak. Most of them are so helpless and have been dealt with such a bad deal that its very hard to make a comeback. I hope a robust suicide monitoring and support system is developed to help and empower people.

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    1. Yes that is true………my stay was much…..thinking all through@thepsychogrok

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  2. You are young and I know all things seem bad right now, but you’ve already mentioned the fact that you love your parents, friends, and siblings! That’s more than some people have, I promise. Please hang on to the positive in that while the other items get worked out. Since you haven’t been able to find a job (which is so very hard!) maybe you should start your own business doing what you love to do? You mentioned being outdoors makes you feel a little better. Can you become a dog walker or landscaper? I’d love to help you if I can. Please visit my blog and let’s become friends. I’m here for you, as corny as that sounds! 🙂

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    1. Thank you! I appreciate your thoughtful comment on this post.

      Your beautiful comment and agreement to this post on my blog just made my morning
      I found delight love in what you just said on my  post.

      I posted it almost 2years ago, when I had some depression that period. Am out of it now.

      Am happy you took your time to analyse and read my work.

      I will try and reach you out on your blog so we talk about it.

      Thanks one more time.

      You welcome

      #PATRICKSTORIES
      Peace ✌and Love ❤

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      1. Oh, I’m so glad you’re in a better place! I replied to your email before I read this comment, but thankful we can talk. Keep doing great things, my new friend!!

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        1. You are welcome

          #PATRICKSTORIES
          Peace ✌and Love ❤

          Liked by 1 person

        2. Thank you! I appreciate your thoughtful response.

          Such an awesome way of replying someone. Thanks. Again
          As always your posts are incredible and I enjoying reading every word down till the last line. I must say that you are probably one of the excellent bloggers on WordPress that write inspired
          Writing/post

          Also, I just posted:

          THE FATE OF A WOMEN-THE FOUR BROKEN MIRRORS (TALES)

          Would love to know your views. Love to see your contributions on it. I’m always excited for your comment. 🙂

          You are welcome

          #PATRICKSTORIES
          Peace ✌and Love ❤

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          1. Thank you!! 🙂 I’ll go check it out!

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  3. Patrick

    Get a job in telemarketing. It’s a shit job but it will teach you more about people than every college course you can imagine combined. Or maybe you should start your own business. Get a bucket and a squeegee and do windows on businesses or private homes. Buy some pot if you can. It helps a lot with depression. Killing yourself is stupid. What you are today may not be who you are tomorrow. You learn more from failure than success so learn from your failures and build on them. You are a man. Fuck your feelings and make your luck. Edison failed thousands of times and yet he learned from those failures and never give up. As long as you have breath to breath you can change your stars. If you can do nothing else busy yourself with helping others. There are a lot of people out there just like you. Sometimes in helping others we help ourselves even more. Go to church, pray to Jesus and take control of your life.

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    1. Oh am touch by this comment. This blew me away. Thank you for taking the time to share these contribution/views through these words in your comment.

      These words you said in your comment are painted in truth, experience and perspective. I especially love how you started it
      and how you ended the comment.

      Beautifully written and as I read through again on each line I was amazed . Each word you used are true and reflective of my personal encounter with people

      This produced a smile on my tired face after a long day. You’re appreciated.

      Thanks for that kind words(Kudos to you!!)

      You are welcome

      #PATRICKSTORIES
      Peace ✌and Love ❤

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