I have been trying to find work for over four years now.

Attended a few interviews, yet nothing happens.

I have a loving Parent who care for me.

I feel miserable being a stay-at-home bachelor not because I want to but because I can’t find any work that suits me.

In fact, lately, I have been applying for any kind of jobs and still nothing happens.

I feel so ashamed that I feel like I want to die, so I do not talk about this to anyone.

I live in a country where I made few good friends, but they all have their own issues too.

I miss my family and I am avoiding to call lately because I don’t want them to know how sad I really feel.

I am in my early 30s and I have a great educational background. I have worked all my life to get what I have and be where I am…until this…

I always thought that people who fall into depression were weak and those who committed suicide were insanely selfish.

I never believed that an emotional pain could be strong enough to create the genuine need to kill oneself.

Lately, the only reason that prevented me  not to  go through with killing myself is the love I have for my friends, parents and  siblings.

How selfish would that be.

Right now I feel so worthless as a person in the society because I do nothing to contribute.

I live in a beautiful city with gorgeous beaches and landscapes but even that I can’t fully appreciate the beauty anymore.

I do exercise, read and I’m outside a lot (I do feel better when I am distracted doing those things) but the relief is only temporary.

I don’t know what else to do.

Written by:

Kogwuonye patrick onyeka



Credited to:

All depressed fellows

All unemployed youths



  1. Good one. I am a budding therapist and I will second your thoughts when you say people who commit suicide are weak. Most of them are so helpless and have been dealt with such a bad deal that its very hard to make a comeback. I hope a robust suicide monitoring and support system is developed to help and empower people.

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